Jesus, jesus, jesus. Yesterday I almost had a complete meltdown. So I was catching up on my favorite tv show and just chilling out in my room, not really doing anything when I noticed that I was feeling kind of weird. Not 100% right. I didn't think much about it but the feeling inside me began to grow. The pressure on my forehead, about the size of a dime and extending all the way into the center of my brain kept rising. I kept trying to ignore it and just fight it but it became too strong guys. I don't get really worried these days because I can usually handle the energy but this was too severe. I was in full panic mode...thought that maybe I was on drugs or something, that something might have accidentally been put into my food...but they wouldn't do that. What the fuck was going on? I don't know why sometimes I get like this guys. It reminded me of back a couple years ago when my third eye was opening by force again and I'd just hide under my blanket (lmao as a grown ass man) and scream into my pillow or jump up and down like a madman. I just turned off the lights and tried to relax as much as possible and ride it out. But then the shit started happening. Knocks around my room, shit moving, etc... and I just felt terrified, I couldn't relax. The whole thing fucking scares the shit out of me. At least back then it was just the feeling that was too intense, but now I gotta deal with my powers going out of control too?? :'( God... And on and on it went for hours and hours until I passed out. I woke up exhausted today and the middle of my brain still felt raw and overworked. I'm still feeling raw tbh. What if it gets worse? Am I losing it? My teacher told me that at one point it was like he was stuck in a haunted house 24/7, a living nightmare. I need, I MUST find a way to keep this shit under a lid somehow. I don't have any other option.