I think I have a psychological disease

Hello,

I am posting about this problem in the bhw lounge hoping someone can tell me what to do. I have a problem that is really decreasing my quality of life. I will describe what i do.


My problem is mostly with envelopes and mailing things I guess. When I put a paper in an envelope and seal the envelope, I have to open the envelope to make sure I put the right paper in. when I seal the envelope again, I start doubting myself and need to open it again. Yesterday I had to change an envelope twice.

Another time, I looked up an address, wrote it on an envelope. doubled checked it. it was fine. As soon as I got to the post office, I started thinking "what if this is the wrong address? am I sure this is the right address? I wish my phone had internet so I could check it." guess what happened afterwards. I won't tell you. Just take a guess.

other than mailing things, I have other similar problems. When I give someone a 20 dollar bill, I think I gave them 2 bills that were stuck together. I am like "did i just pay $40?"


when I give someone at the restaurant a credit card, I realize that it was a bad decision and wish I had paid in cash. If I give cash, I realize it was a bad decision and I should have paid by credit card.

Please no comments about any chemicals or medications that I could put in my body, unless the chemical is 100% harmless.

OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

there, I just diagnosed you...

I have a slight version of this down to a tee. Its Obesessive Compulsive Disorder, like bwman says.

I done the same when sending a letter off to the tax office last month. I had to reopen it as I couldn't stop thinking about whether or not I sent the right thing. I also re-read my emails 3 or so times before sending. Then check my sent box several times afterwards to double check I said what I needed to.

I am a creature of habit and need things to be "just so" in certain areas of the house. An example is lamps! lol I must have lamps in my house and as soon as one breaks I will catch a bus to the shopping centre 10 miles away to buy one, no matter how little cash I have. I dont like ceiling lights.

Good God I sound demented. But it means I keep a clean house and my letters are always articulated well! lol


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same thing happen with me all the time and my doctors told me this happen beacuse im depressed.my physiatrist told me to ignore my thoughts.i do take some pills but then i stoped beacuse pills make you suicidal (in my case).And sleep minimum 8-9 hours will help you as well.if you start ignoring your thoughts then it will go slowly slowly but it will take some time.

Do everything twice, DO everything, Buy everything.

Aegroeg said:

I also re-read my emails 3 or so times before sending. Then check my sent box several times afterwards to double check I said what I needed to.

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omg, you also read your sent emails several times? me too. I also think "this part is not clear and the guy might misunderstand. I should have said this sentence another way"

freemoon said:

same thing happen with me all the time and my doctors told me this happen beacuse im depressed.my physiatrist told me to ignore my thoughts.i do take some pills but then i stoped beacuse pills make you suicidal (in my case).And sleep minimum 8-9 hours will help you as well.if you start ignoring your thoughts then it will go slowly slowly but it will take some time.

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Unless you have anxiety and other issues its not always correct to say its depression. I have been slightly OCD since childhood and have remained happy in general throughout life.

But I certainly agree in many causes it can be manifested from depression and even CAUSE depression. Shame.

theseodude said:

omg, you also read your sent emails several times? me too. I also think "this part is not clear and the guy might misunderstand. I should have said this sentence another way"

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Definitely! Even emailing my Dad today I've re-read our emails twice. And its only my Dad!

Like was already said, OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder. I wouldn't stress too much about it dude. I've had it most of my life to varying degrees. As I've gotten older it's decreased to where it's barely there. Either that or I've just learned to accept it.
Try and just remember that you KNOW you are doing it and then try to relax. In other words, when you put that paper in the envelope and feel the need to reopen the envelope, REMEMBER that EVERY OTHER TIME, you've done it, you had the right thing in the envelope.
Don't stress bro, you'll be fine.

many people have this issue so do not feel alone. It is a form of paranoia I guess (OCD as some label it). I used to get this way after I smoked high test marijuana but it would go away after a bit.....lol. so if you smoke pot you might want to cut back a bit. Other that that you should try to ignore the urge to check everything twice and it will get better over time

freemoon said:

same thing happen with me all the time and my doctors told me this happen beacuse im depressed.my physiatrist told me to ignore my thoughts.i do take some pills but then i stoped beacuse pills make you suicidal (in my case).And sleep minimum 8-9 hours will help you as well.if you start ignoring your thoughts then it will go slowly slowly but it will take some time.

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And also " IGNORE YOUR THOUGHTS" - A PSYCHIATRIST told you this? Dude, change psychiatrists, seriously. Cognitive Behavioural therapy can be used to change the way you think. Telling someone to "ignore it " is pretty insulting if you pay this person for this advice. If life were that easy people wouldn't commit suicide. Sometimes we can't escape our thoughts. Our brains go at 100mph and we want nothing more than to get away from our own mind. I used to want to take a holiday away - from myself!

I have a lighter version of that disease. When I lock the door to get out, after a few steps I start asking myself, did I really lock the door? What if I didn't and someone steals stuff I have at home? So I go back to check. Weird thing but I found the solution is to take it slowly, that way the brain will have enough time to understand what's happening.

The same for you I'd suggest, take it easy and slowly, be relaxed and don't stress yourself out. Think about it when you put the paper in the envelope, so you can reassure your brain that you're doing the right thing.

bwman said:

OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder

there, I just diagnosed you...

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Do you smoke weed or recently stopped smoking weed?

IamNRE said:

Do you smoke weed or recently stopped smoking weed?

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nope. never touched it in my life.

Meditate, my friend. Meditate and calm down your brain. Those who have this disorder are having hyper-active brain and they can only get rid of this problem, when they are able to handle things in a calm and composed manner. Just spend few minutes daily focusing your breath. It's gonna help you.

It's connected with sex. Do you drain your groins on a daily basis?

SkyrocketSEO said:

It's connected with sex. Do you drain your groins on a daily basis?

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I find that hard to believe. if this was the case, 99% of men should have this problem.

Don't seal the envelopes until you are actually putting them into the mail. Check it all you want before hand, seal and drop into one of the pick up mailboxes in a plaza. After you drop it you can't get it back so it really doesn't matter what you think at that point.

You can put that tendency toward OCD to constructive use. Most people are completely incapable of paying attention to details; ALL the details. One way to focus is to implement procedures that, if correctly followed, will ensure the right outcome.

You hear a lot of stuff about OCD people with rigid hand washing procedures, etc... which is not really constructive, but there are many areas in life where having a guy that ALWAYS does it THE EXACT SAME WAY WITH NO DEVIATION can be a major plus. I'm sure if you put some effort into it, you could find a way to harness that tendency at put it to use in some kind of internet marketing. Maybe programming. I don't think there is a lot of forgiveness in ALMOST getting the code "just right".

Maybe a surgeon. You don't want that guy finding new and creative ways to do things while he's got you opened up on the operating table.

Buy yourself an island some bitches and forget everything lol.
2nd option (cheaper) : saying that u have money and have no experience with motorbikes buy a hayabusa/zzr/r1 and get some adrenaline , either u die either u survive