Hello beautiful people , I hope your day is going well today. I came across an article talking about..my thing.. and something that struck me about the guy is not just the profound level of eloquence he had but how much he aligned with my world view. This made me think deeply about many aspects of my life and I realized that some of my actions were not correct. I believe I am a manifestation of the supreme creator, The One. Energy. I also think that this computer I'm typing on is, and the trees, an ant, everything and everyone is absolutely perfect and complete. Therefore whenever someone is angry at me, I think why is God angry at me. I made ..err.. a "few" controversial discussions and I felt some very negative energy coming to me. Normally that doesn't bother me much, but lately I have began questioning why magick/energy/psi/The One is angry at me. The fact is that it was very ego centric. I think I have a desire to feel special. To feel like I am different and superior to men. I want to feel like I'm big and bad, something not to be fucked with. Many of the things I do simply feed my ego and feelings of grandeur in order to rationalize that. Sometimes it works, sometimes it backfires in a big way and when it does, it leaves scars I have to address at a later stage. I used magick to feed my huge ego, not really to explore who I am, why I am here and what my purpose in this life is. I think it's time I grew up from childish behaviors and actually used these tools the way they are meant to handled: as ways to explore the self, improve and help others. I apologize for any negativity I may have spread to you guys and I truly do wish you a good day. I will not be posting anything else to do with these matters here again.