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I owe you guys an apology

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, May 4, 2015.

  1. pewep

    pewep Power Member

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    Hello beautiful people :),

    I hope your day is going well today. I came across an article talking about..my thing.. and something that struck me about the guy is not just the profound level of eloquence he had but how much he aligned with my world view. This made me think deeply about many aspects of my life and I realized that some of my actions were not correct.

    I believe I am a manifestation of the supreme creator, The One. Energy. I also think that this computer I'm typing on is, and the trees, an ant, everything and everyone is absolutely perfect and complete. Therefore whenever someone is angry at me, I think why is God angry at me. I made ..err.. a "few" controversial discussions and I felt some very negative energy coming to me. Normally that doesn't bother me much, but lately I have began questioning why magick/energy/psi/The One is angry at me. The fact is that it was very ego centric.

    I think I have a desire to feel special. To feel like I am different and superior to men. I want to feel like I'm big and bad, something not to be fucked with. Many of the things I do simply feed my ego and feelings of grandeur in order to rationalize that. Sometimes it works, sometimes it backfires in a big way and when it does, it leaves scars I have to address at a later stage. I used magick to feed my huge ego, not really to explore who I am, why I am here and what my purpose in this life is.

    I think it's time I grew up from childish behaviors and actually used these tools the way they are meant to handled: as ways to explore the self, improve and help others. I apologize for any negativity I may have spread to you guys and I truly do wish you a good day. I will not be posting anything else to do with these matters here again.
     
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    Welcome back Pewep

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    pxoxrxn Supreme Member

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    No religion talk, a simple "sorry I'm a dick" would have sufficed.
     
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    I quite enjoyed reading your posts about magick and spirits mate.

    Better than the usual mundane posts about guys trying to stop jacking off for 3 months etc...
     
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    Stick your apology up your arse.

    Ok i actually enjoy your somewhat whacky threads really.
     
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  6. pewep

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    Love you all :D, and I really love talking about this stuff with you guys. Just have to find a better medium - pun intended
     
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    pewep did one of those angry mods infract you? I hope not.

    I too am superior to most people. I would like to make man sauce babies with you. We can kill millions of unborn children with the simple yank of our hands.
     
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    You think everyone has been created perfectly?

    Fuck that noise dude.

    Go tell that to the millions of people who are dying of cancer and all the kids in the hospital with diseases that are untreatable.

    What the fuck has magic or however way you chose to spell it done for any of them? NOTHING.

    I am so damn sick of these threads. Make money or piss off.
     
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    This is the lounge. People can talk about what they like. If you dont believe it, it doesn't make it wrong.
     
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    They just need to bereeve. Get it... beeereeeeve

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    I cannot find it in my heart to forgive you! j/k

    I have always loved your post. They are different & not like the usual but that's what make you unique :)
     
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    Love you jutt :D. It's a full moon btw so I have to prepare for rituals. Talk soon loves.
     
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    I've pointed this out to you on several occasions but your response is always anger and petulance.

    Maybe there's hope for you yet :)

    This desire you have to feel powerful stems from deep seated insecurities Pewep. If you want to feel a true sense of power, confront whatever it is that caused those insecurities. Confront it, face it, address it, deal with it and then move on from it.

    Power comes from understanding yourself, not hiding from yourself.
     
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    Dude, you got seriously too much spare time...
     
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    pwep i was waiting for your response on Floyd Mayweather, Jr. vs. Manny Pacquiao but you didnt replied.
     
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    pewep! pewep! pewep! Enjoyed your post.
     
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    Hmmm, strange post. Have you seen a psychiatrist lately? If not, maybe it's time to do so. Anyways, good luck with your psychadelic journey but be aware that you're not anything better than any other human being. That's not how "the Creator" intended it. It's better to say that you're different.
    Come on man, get your feet back on the ground.
     
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