Hello everyone, You guys might remember a thread which i created in early of this year (https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/really-need-some-advice-on-a-decision.1011373/) - I was at a point in my life where i didn't see anything useful in it anymore. I hated my life the way it was, i had a job that i knew would destroy me. Quick Sidenote to the job: It was an Apprenticeship, i started it back in September 2017, from that point on i only got used for 2 things here : -Taking calls and pretty much saying the same thing for 7-8 hours a day -Cleaning the coffee machine and basically being the bitch for the company. -An apprenticeship in Germany is basically to learn a job fully..( i haven't learned anything there..seriously...) In my mind i thought it would be getting better at times but then again, there was just this bad vibe in the company, everyone was talking behind each others back and you couldnt really trust anyone. For someone to quit an apprenticeship and go FULL IM is probably a big step. Especially in the german economy where taxes and other bills are very high. This was probably the biggest fear to overcome. The fear of losing it all when i quitting this job.. Back when i made this Thread (https://www.blackhatworld.com/seo/really-need-some-advice-on-a-decision.1011373/) i was really going through some time. The fact that my relationship was on the rocks (which ended a couple days after the thread was created) didn't really help at all. I started to lose balance in my, waking up and doing something was just not the same anymore, i didnt feel like doing anything and i was just working at my apprenticeship to not get fired. When you work your ass off at a company and you get called in to just listen to some "managers" telling me that i am not doing my work correctly just hit me hard. That was 2-3 Weeks ago, i had already written my termination notice (for the 3rd time over the last 10 months), and it was 2 weeks ago, when i was standing at the postal office just thinking about if i should give up this letter or not. I put the letter in the mail and went silent. Today i got my confirmation that the job termination letter has arrived and my apprenticeship will end on the 31.12.2018. I never really though that i could make it this far, and basically stand up for myself and do what i want to do. At the end of the day, it was just the fear that kept me from doing what i wanted to do. The fear of not being enough, not trusting myself enough and not believing in myself. Giving up the job termination notice might be the worst thing i have ever done in my life, but it also might be the best decision i have ever made in my life. TL;DR : Don't let fear control your life. Everything you wanted is on the other side of fear.