I'm sure many people have wanted to work in the office, under the comfort of an air conditioner. Well, 8 hours of creative work vs 8 hours of manual labor, which is more challenging? The reality is that office work it's no less challenging than working on the field all day. I have done both. It's easy to think to yourself, "Meh, these lazy office workers can't handle writing a few [dozen] papers per day. I'd gladly give up work under the sun, just to sit all day and write some crap." Mental Stress Is Exhausting In All Areas I think by the end of the day, working outside mainly tires me out physically, which could even help me fall asleep quicker. Doing IM all day has a large strain on the mind. By the end of the day, your head is spinning and you can't even relax after work. I think it's better to take 10 minute breaks every hour or so. A balance of exercise, proper nutrition and work is probably the most efficient way to do it. It's just... I thought I'd come here and make like 50k per month within a couple of months, but it's so much more work than that. Reality of working online really changed my perspective on a lot of things. I mostly just troll on BHW, but I can't figure shit out. My fear of rejection is so bad that I like to pretend I'm tough and show off, even though I keep failing, lol. Just earlier today I was taking an application exam for rev.com and noticed that transcribing a 2 and a half minute audio file tired me out so quickly. Sometimes I ask myself, "Why do I even bother?" But what else can one do? All I want is to succeed. But I realize that I need to take breaks. Maybe one day I'll be able to shut that voice inside my head that keeps telling me how useless I am. It's a constant struggle to not give up altogether. I hate, fucking HATE my stupid upbringing and constantly having to challenge the idea that money is evil. I have near anxiety attacks when I remember my judeo-christian childhood. It's so deeply ingrained that every single thing is like trying to tackle an oak tree. "It's not gonna work.", "you should just quit.", "you are just as useless as your 48 yo cousin who still lives with his parents.", "you are a poor kid from the lower class, just accept it.", etc. I want to tell that voice to shut the fuck up for good! I've made it a habit to be productive every day. Uploading a video to YouTube, makes me feel productive. Writing stuff, makes me feel productive. Keeping busy helps steer the thoughts from the negative. Man, I've live so long with negativity that it feels strange without it. What kind of BS is that?