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I am GOING to die. Not a joke, not a video. SERIOUSLY

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by chickuzt, Apr 11, 2009.

  1. chickuzt

    chickuzt BANNED BANNED

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    My Fatal Error...

    Well blackhatworld, about a day ago the area behind my belly button started hurting REALLY BAD to the point I could not stand up straight. I tried to man out the problem, by neglecting the pain, but I think I have condemned myself to death. The reason being, I am confident I have appendicitis and have ignored its presence for too long. I am going to try, but I believe it is too late now to take the required action to save myself.

    A Rebel To The End

    My entire life I have refused conformity. Life has been nothing but hell to me, every last single day of it. From early childhood I was bullied to the extremes. Bullied on shit I couldn't control, for being too pale, until I couldn't take it anymore. In middle school I said, "No more!" I grabbed a steak knife from my kitchen and slid it in my backpack. Brought it to school and told the motherfuckers if they every fucked with me again I'd cut there fucking throats out. The bullying stopped!

    Lesson Learned!

    We as humans learn through the associative property. We attach and make connections between things that help us and hurt us. You smell pizza, you think about what it tastes like, which rids you of hunger. You see a car on the road with the pizza logo on top and sometimes you might salivate. This also goes with actions to. You try a new money technique, spend 4 hours working it and make $40, you learn to repeat these actions. Your action was rewarded and you learn to repeat it through the associative property. Using trial and error you tweak your methods and if they work you repeat them. Understand?

    Well, pulling a knife stopped the bullying, but what did I really learn? I learned NEVER to take crap from anyone! YOU MUST have to initiative to take action if you really want change! You must deviate from standard thinking patterns.

    The Domino Effect of Money

    Applying these principles changed my life...you must be-

    -ambitious
    -willing to learn (to dig deeper)
    -able to change entirely what you think to be true (almost borderline conspiracies)
    -able to learn how to learn (analyze and imitate other successful individuals)
    -able to ACTUALLY act and do it
    -creative

    ...with all of those skills mastered, in your pocket, the possibles are endless.

    Sorry, going to have to cut this short...

    I went from an extremely malicious hacker to a mellowed out Internet marketer in a relatively short period of time. I just want to let you now a few things I have found extremely important-

    NEVER settle for less
    Do not be afraid to deviate from the whole
    Never give up
    Everything to some extent is a conspiracy
    Understand psychology and you can manipulate people like putty
    Always question and reflect
    Understand that humans are festering bacteria on the face of this earth and the more you try to destroy it, the more you will be rewarded (subjective of course)
    Do it
    99% of people on earth are stupid, they are sheep (easy to herd). There are wolves and herders in this world, if you ever want to succeed decide on which one you want to be.


    I am feeling extreme pain and can no longer keep typing. I was planning on writing a lot more, but that no longer seems a possibility. Fuck you, fuck the world, and I have never been happy even despite having large quantities of money. Life has been nothing but pain. Off to the ER I go! :(

    *Every living being dies alone.
     
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  2. jasonac2

    jasonac2 Junior Member

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    I had a appendicitis while in hospital. You wouldn't be able to write this message with one, trust me.
     
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  3. callmelucid

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    hope you get better. an appendicitis doesnt happen behind the bellybutton. it is probably something else
     
  4. valwardon

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    I am confident you DO NOT have appendicitis. I had appendicitis . They actually blew up while on the operating table. I did die. I died on the operating table.

    I have the scars to prove my dance with death.

    YOU DO NOT have appendicitis how do I know. The pain is no where near your belly button. Your appendices is on your right hand side near where the hip bone is. Actually it is almost half way distance between your hip bone and your belly button.

    Looking at the scar brings back alot of memories. The one thing I can tell you if you die it will not be appendicitis that kills you.
     
  5. popcrdom29

    popcrdom29 Senior Member

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    I've had surgery for appendicitis too and everyone is right, it's not near the belly button. Whatever you have you should seek medical attention right away.

    Oh and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Sounds like you have low self esteem. If you have the money that you say you do then spend some of it to take a vacation, go and have some fun.
     
  6. bizcredit

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    You are pregnant
     
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  7. blackmagiquellc

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    Get Well Soon. If not, see you on the other side fellow BHer
     
  8. marcuskona

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    would it be insensitive of me to ask you to install a webcam so I may allow my board members to watch via PPV?

    if your interested PM me. we can split the profits, well me and your next of kin.

    I hope you get well soon though.
     
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  9. farfetchedmoney

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    I'd take money stresses over, "lack there of", anyday....Life is a trade off, but, piece of mind is a medium and some find it on their journey through life and some don't. Seek it out, I cant tell you what piece of mind means for you as I notice it is different for everyone(alike like money making methods is different).

    Good day
     
  10. farking

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    I'm afraid all you have is a stomach ache and a mild case of retardation.
     
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  11. Erik

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    Am I the only one hoping he would die in the middle of typing that?
     
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  12. bizcredit

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    And his head hit the keyboard to post as his final words
     
  13. Sanitarium

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    Life can be funny sometimes you know OP. When last did you have a good long fart? It could just be gas.

    In all seriousness, if it's bothering you so much get it looked at.
     
  14. jetti789

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    You might have a hernia. Or stones. A friend of my had stones and he was doubled over in pain.
     
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    In a word,
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    Has anyone seen my monkey?
     
  17. Belexandor

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    Damn......He went from being an extremely malicious hacker to a mellowed out internet marketer and he didn't even have the foresight to check webmd for his symptoms?

    Sad,sad world we live in.
     
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  18. stinky_boy

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    I hope your ok, but you sound like 100% pure, refined, and gold label bullshit. Define psychology? I know people that have doctrines, phds, masters, and bachelors in the field. Many couldn't figure out how to get a ewhore sign up much less anything else.
     
  19. ajeeyunz

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    someone with a fatal wound can type like that, very organized? I don't think so. :)
     
  20. ken3401

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    You probably just have worms, maybe a good parasite cleanse is what you need to make the pain go away. What you described is nothing near to appendicitis.