My Fatal Error... Well blackhatworld, about a day ago the area behind my belly button started hurting REALLY BAD to the point I could not stand up straight. I tried to man out the problem, by neglecting the pain, but I think I have condemned myself to death. The reason being, I am confident I have appendicitis and have ignored its presence for too long. I am going to try, but I believe it is too late now to take the required action to save myself. A Rebel To The End My entire life I have refused conformity. Life has been nothing but hell to me, every last single day of it. From early childhood I was bullied to the extremes. Bullied on shit I couldn't control, for being too pale, until I couldn't take it anymore. In middle school I said, "No more!" I grabbed a steak knife from my kitchen and slid it in my backpack. Brought it to school and told the motherfuckers if they every fucked with me again I'd cut there fucking throats out. The bullying stopped! Lesson Learned! We as humans learn through the associative property. We attach and make connections between things that help us and hurt us. You smell pizza, you think about what it tastes like, which rids you of hunger. You see a car on the road with the pizza logo on top and sometimes you might salivate. This also goes with actions to. You try a new money technique, spend 4 hours working it and make $40, you learn to repeat these actions. Your action was rewarded and you learn to repeat it through the associative property. Using trial and error you tweak your methods and if they work you repeat them. Understand? Well, pulling a knife stopped the bullying, but what did I really learn? I learned NEVER to take crap from anyone! YOU MUST have to initiative to take action if you really want change! You must deviate from standard thinking patterns. The Domino Effect of Money Applying these principles changed my life...you must be- -ambitious -willing to learn (to dig deeper) -able to change entirely what you think to be true (almost borderline conspiracies) -able to learn how to learn (analyze and imitate other successful individuals) -able to ACTUALLY act and do it -creative ...with all of those skills mastered, in your pocket, the possibles are endless. Sorry, going to have to cut this short... I went from an extremely malicious hacker to a mellowed out Internet marketer in a relatively short period of time. I just want to let you now a few things I have found extremely important- NEVER settle for less Do not be afraid to deviate from the whole Never give up Everything to some extent is a conspiracy Understand psychology and you can manipulate people like putty Always question and reflect Understand that humans are festering bacteria on the face of this earth and the more you try to destroy it, the more you will be rewarded (subjective of course) Do it 99% of people on earth are stupid, they are sheep (easy to herd). There are wolves and herders in this world, if you ever want to succeed decide on which one you want to be. I am feeling extreme pain and can no longer keep typing. I was planning on writing a lot more, but that no longer seems a possibility. Fuck you, fuck the world, and I have never been happy even despite having large quantities of money. Life has been nothing but pain. Off to the ER I go! *Every living being dies alone.