It's been 4 years since I started practicing and I still feel like this shit isn't getting any easier and that I'm just as far away as when I first began. Today, I was practicing concentration (which is a tedious chore but necessary for ANY spiritual endeavor) when I just snapped out of it because I was getting bored to tears. The moment I "let go" the chair in front of me started rocking back and forth and vibrating like it had jumped or something. Keep in mind I was on my bed about 2-3 feet away from it and it lies on carpet....-_-. I'm sick of the bullshit. I'm sick of the mindgames with my subconscious. I feel like every time I'm about to give up, it throws a nice fat juicy piece of meat in front of me and makes me beg for it. I still haven't figured out how to reliably do major telekinesis and I still cannot control my powers worth a shit. Yet every time I wanna just give up all together, I feel a burst of psychic power come over me. Will I ever be master of my domain? Sigh, was just kind of frustrated and needed to vent bros :'(.