hi im josh

HI GUYS, ITS YA BOOYYYY blah blah, hit the follow button

I've been trying to escape the "rat race" for quite a few years now.

And despite some pretty aggravating setbacks, I'm still convinced to the teeth that I will attain what I am seeking.

Either that or ...

.. I am at least resigned to the fact that I will keep at it until I succeed or die having tried.

My internet marketing journey thus far ... 1 bumpy f*cking ride:

First taste of smushy internet money was back when i was 13. I sold a few copies of a Runescape macro I'd made, it farmed men and picked up herbs

THEN I fell into nitty-gritty internet marketing shit, spammed a lot, no doubt tried to post a few CPA locked downloads here in the early days
but generally, I spent most of my time doing:

- CPA marketing 2 years? --> did okay, felt content locking was unethical, generated 600 referrals to CPA networks, perhaps 8 people make money? a grand waste of time.
- eBay Amazon drop-shipping businesses 4 years --> I ran 4x times, fully automated, each generating profits, have been through hell and back with return scams, 4 banned eBay accounts, debt-collectors, 1 banned Paypal.
- Cryptocurrency arbitrage 2 years --> wrote an automated bot that traded for me, generated profit, banks froze/closed accounts
- True Miller, my blog 6 years --> culmination of almost 6 years' work, writing content I enjoy, casual, poor attempt at SEO, generating 7.5k email subs on some shitty JetPack WordPress email list, dead blog. Ranks for no articles at all, Jetpack subscribe is trash.

These things have all ran in parallel.

And actually, now that I look back...

It doesn't really seem like I've done that much? But holy shit, I've learned so much. And it's literally corrupted every faucet of my mind in terms of the internet, commerciality, and freeing myself from being an employed slave.

I've probably generated at least $1,000,000 in revenue, through trades, past retail, advertisements, money for affiliates.

Who knows, I don't really keep a count. Profits have always been reinvested on the next best thing.. which..

Has more or less failed.

BUT HERES THE THING:
" I am fucking stuck" -- Josh (9/8/2020 01:26)
> Message to self in future: Fuck you, I gave up so much for you, if you are still failing, please, fucking sort it out.

I have sacrificed so much time, on things that have not culminated into any long-term viability up until this point.

Instead...

I'm still: fluttering around, attacking things in an non-planned manner, like the crazy, but fairly smart, though sleep-deprived, ambitious solopreneur that I am.

Currently, I work a job, as a software developer/consultant. And I'm pretty good at it. I work at a really highly regarded company, building solutions for some of the world's largest companies and institutions, in a variety of languages.etc usual spiel.

Yet...

Honestly, I have not been able to help myself thus far.

WHY is that I see others succeed in things in 4 months? Okay, yes, I have achieved huge fly-by-night turnarounds when I've run into some profitable opportunities...
.. and perhaps this is what those people are also sharing, and bragging about, but WHY is it that I have nothing NOW !?

At this very moment...

If I were to lose my job, I would not be able to support myself.

Despite my sitting here behind this computer.
Despite my endless consumption of knowledge and faucets of information into these niche areas.

Of course, it is me. And yes, every entrepreneur has their fair share of failures. And yes, we should never give up. Because giving up is for pusses. But what am I trying to prove?

I AM TRYING TO FUCKING FREE MYSELF FROM THE CHAINS OF THIS PAINFUL CAPITALIST BULLSHIT, BY BEING A FULLY BLOWN CAPITALIST, SUCH THAT, I CAN DO WHAT THE FUCK I WANT, WHEN THE FUCK I WANT, HOW THE FUCK I WANT TO FUCKING DO IT.

And on that note...

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Just started a new project. IDK if it's gonna work or not. Don't know until I try...

No doubt, there's gonna be a few in this thread.

Currently working on a web application that lists products, has it's own niche, dont really wanna share because i know some of u scummy grubbits will knick my idea, will use some SEO tactics to try to outrank competitors that aren't using it though.

Also have a blog, doing the same thing, but with listicles instead, wanna see if it outranks the web application. Have a youtube channel with it too. Try get traffic exchanging all that good shit.

Niche is SUPER general. Hopefully will get a fucktonne of traffic, if I can rank. I'm not gna do this backlink shit. Idk how to do it. Everywhere is no follow. So i'mma just go for pure, whitehat, nice schema all that niche stuff.

Imma call it AL
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AL, generic lists:
- Web app: developing, about a week - 2 weeks till complete MVP, then will put on google/bings
- Blog: up and running, got like 18 articles on it now, after 1-2 weeks? traffic is wank, avg position like 70
- YouTube: been up for a couple months, just left to let it yknow "mature", see how it fends for itself, couple hundo subs atm, not monetized yet, got a video on there with like 19k, but the problem is, i fucking read someones article word for word from their blog, lol, and they messaged and sent loads of ppl to boycott my shit. won't be doing that again, phew

LoL I feel your pain.
It’s funny how so many of us are in the same situation, good steady job with a nice income, but we all know that working for someone else would rarely get you to financial freedom.
I’m searching my way same as you, good luck on your journey.

I felt this as I read it. Best of luck.