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Hello folks,
It's been long enough that I forgot how to sign in. Thanks to @WilhelmScream and others for their patience in getting me back on the forum. I would like to apologize to those members here (Some of which should have never been involved.) of my actions.
Awhile back I went through a dark patch in my life. A very sick family member, death in my family, and one of my best friends betrayed me all in close proximity.
It's not an excuse, but that compounded with a bad frame of mind lead me away from who I used to be in this community and to my friends for that matter. It got ugly. Instead of confronting myself and tackling my own problems, I took out my issues upon others. (Deflection.)
Then foolish pride and ego prolonged things. Some of my friends really stuck by me as I went through this and I'm grateful. Others trolled me hard and I accept I had that coming. When I realized eventually what I had become I took time out as much as possible in life.
Traveled, piddled around, and basically went on to do what you might call "self cultivation".
I had to fix myself and then improve from there. Really, what I wish for is a fresh start and to apologize to any of those who were disappointed in my actions, effected by them, or just mad period. One thing I can say from experience is when someone keeps busy with hate in their heart it's almost guaranteed they're not happy with their own lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read it.
It's been long enough that I forgot how to sign in. Thanks to @WilhelmScream and others for their patience in getting me back on the forum. I would like to apologize to those members here (Some of which should have never been involved.) of my actions.
Awhile back I went through a dark patch in my life. A very sick family member, death in my family, and one of my best friends betrayed me all in close proximity.
It's not an excuse, but that compounded with a bad frame of mind lead me away from who I used to be in this community and to my friends for that matter. It got ugly. Instead of confronting myself and tackling my own problems, I took out my issues upon others. (Deflection.)
Then foolish pride and ego prolonged things. Some of my friends really stuck by me as I went through this and I'm grateful. Others trolled me hard and I accept I had that coming. When I realized eventually what I had become I took time out as much as possible in life.
Traveled, piddled around, and basically went on to do what you might call "self cultivation".
I had to fix myself and then improve from there. Really, what I wish for is a fresh start and to apologize to any of those who were disappointed in my actions, effected by them, or just mad period. One thing I can say from experience is when someone keeps busy with hate in their heart it's almost guaranteed they're not happy with their own lives.
Thanks for taking the time to read it.
