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God Mode difficulty has me feeling more emo than a 12 year old girl

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, Aug 22, 2014.

  1. pewep

    pewep Power Member

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    1. No fapping for almost a week - no porn, no sex (as if that's a problem lol), nothing - CHECK.
    2. No drinking for weeks - CHECK
    3. No nicotine for weeks - CHECK
    4. Exercising (lost 8 lbs already) - CHECK
    5. Meditating - CHECK
    6. Sun gazing - CHECK (this one makes me feel really weird, actually to be quite honest I don't really like exposure to solar energy)
    7. Eating clean - CHECKish

    I'm feeling like I'm just gushing with emotions and huge mood swings right now. BHW hold me close and tight with your big, strong manly arms. Tell me it's going to be alright, I need you :(.

    On the plus side, I look like I just "dropped" about 5+ years and a girl thought I was 17/18 LOL (I'm turning 26 in a couple of days). Actually to be honest I kinda need a break from all this shit so I'm probably going to cheat a lot tonight. This shit aint.easy. I feel like I'm missing out on a big part of life but at the same time, I know this is the price I have to pay for real spiritual power. No games, no fluff, no bs, just work. Love you all.

    EDIT: Another plus side of no fap, etc... is that I feel HUGE swings of energy constantly. It's pretty amazing. I strongly, strongly encourage you guys to at least try it for 1 week.
     
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    We love you too. Stay strong.
     
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  3. gr8money

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    Wow its so awesome what you're doing. Keep at it. And here's a big hug to you :hug: my friend, I salute and am proud of you. You are an inspiration. I usually do 234 and 7 almost daily. It's a lifestyle for me and trust me you're gonna feel great living this way and this compliments you're gonna get... :)
     
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  4. gr8money

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    Btw what do you mean by god mode difficulty. Are you in some program or...??
     
  5. pewep

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    Thank you man :).

    Thank you man, I really appreciate the encouragement. It's definitely a better way of living than before (which was more like living as a shadow in this life). :)

    Haha, "god mode" is just a gaming slang I used to show how hard it's been (but very much worth it). But as far as spirituality, that's a big component of why I'm doing it. It's a bit of a double-entendre I suppose. Cheers!
     
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    Oh ok. cool. Keep at it ma, it's an amazing way to live life, allows you to live it to the fullest. I've been trying to do 5 everyday but always feel like i dont have the time( even though i have plenty lol). Good day to you.
     
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    LOL. You're doing the exact thing that NA/AA preaches against... which is trying to conquer all your "demons" at the same time.

    I hate to be the one to say it, but this usually never works. You should really just focus on not drinking. Once you do that for 3 months, then move on to the next bad habit.

    I've been trying to not smoke weed for 5 days now. One thing I find is it's only really "hard" when I'm thinking about it, or typing about it like I am right now. I've found the best mentality to have is like that guy from "The Hurt Locker". The dude who goes to disarm bombs w/out his armor on. When asked if he ever gets scared he responded "I just don't think about it". I know it's just a movie but I really think that's the best mentality to have. Like you said you've been meditating.... so maybe you can just stop thinking about all the shit you're trying to do?

    Otherwise the more and more you think about it the more likely you're just gonna snap and go get sauced tonight.
     
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  8. pewep

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    Huh! I definitely hear you on that one man, I guess I always felt that one of my problems always directly lead to another. For example if I'm smoking/dipping or drinking alone - I always get the strong urge to do the other one as well. Exercising, etc... just seemed like a good willpower builder. You're right though, I definitely do need to take it a bit easier and just not think about it so much. Find stuff to occupy myself with as often as I can.

    The kind of meditation I do really isn't for "silencing" the mind per-se, it actually does the exact opposite and is an exercise to get good rapport with the subconscious. I find it actually makes me a lot calmer because simply trying to think about nothing is super, super hard for me (or anyone but masters tbh).

    Thanks for your input man, I'll take it all into consideration. Good job with quitting the weed btw :).
     
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    Best way to start with meditation is:

    1st week - 5 minutes per day
    2nd week - 15 minutes per day
    keep adding 5 minutes per day every 1-2 weeks after that. It'll become a deeply ingrained habit.
     
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    No. If you haven't busted a nut in a week you'll probably crack a fat on my thigh.
     
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    Much love - stay strong - best advice was to stick to one demon at a time... but if you can do it... GREAT!

    but at your age I was sleeping with my now wife at least twice a day, sometimes more. I recommended picking up a hot chick and taking your fap to the next level.

    /hug
     
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    God fucking dammit netmoney...sigh.

    Like Jesus said, "It's been a good run niggas, there's always tomorrow."
     
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    gg there's always next time
     
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    All except point no.1 is the most difficult thing to control for me :) The longest period I hold on to that was 1 month.
     
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    This one, I choose this one.
     
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    netmoney is trying to hijack your thread LOL...

    Stay strong but as BreaknBrix said, try defeating one or two bad habits at a time!
     
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    It's by FAR the hardest thing on the list. And it just gets harder and harder to control as time progresses with no end in sight.
     
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