pewep
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- Nov 3, 2008
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Hey guys,
I had a bit of a revelation moment over the last few weeks. I've just graduated and one of the gifts that I've had from the Supreme One is the ability to empathize on a deep level with people.
I think I was racist, homophobic and misogynistic. I don't say that lightly, because I've always considered myself to be as left wing as it gets. Anyway, for some reason I stumbled on a worldstar video called "throw that boy p*ssy out" and watched it. I felt super, super uncomfortable because it was a gay person describing explicit sexual acts to his partners. I have ZERO problems with gay people at all and it's none of my business but honestly that made me wonder: what if all the "sexy" videos I watch of women dancing and twerking, etc... elicit the same reaction out of women who watch it? I felt disgusted with myself and disturbed, is this what women feel when they look at porn and rap videos?
Another thing is I seem to have a chip on my shoulder with white people. The fact is that my direct Vajrayana teacher is white (like - blond haired, blue eyed pure white) and he has taught me more about being a human being than anyone else on this planet. Actually, I listen to his podcasts every night and play them while I'm asleep just to get the good vibes and subconscious programming from him. I love him to bits. On top of that, there are dozens, probably hundreds of white people I've met in my life who have truly, truly made me a better human being, made me economically richer and just healed my soul. Then why the fuck should I carry this stupid, racist, idiotic baggage with me?
I guess all I'm saying is that I'm trying to grow, trying to be a better human being but it's a long process. I love you all. Btw I just finished all my exams and classes so I've basically graduated
. Anyway, happy holidays to all <3.
I had a bit of a revelation moment over the last few weeks. I've just graduated and one of the gifts that I've had from the Supreme One is the ability to empathize on a deep level with people.
I think I was racist, homophobic and misogynistic. I don't say that lightly, because I've always considered myself to be as left wing as it gets. Anyway, for some reason I stumbled on a worldstar video called "throw that boy p*ssy out" and watched it. I felt super, super uncomfortable because it was a gay person describing explicit sexual acts to his partners. I have ZERO problems with gay people at all and it's none of my business but honestly that made me wonder: what if all the "sexy" videos I watch of women dancing and twerking, etc... elicit the same reaction out of women who watch it? I felt disgusted with myself and disturbed, is this what women feel when they look at porn and rap videos?
Another thing is I seem to have a chip on my shoulder with white people. The fact is that my direct Vajrayana teacher is white (like - blond haired, blue eyed pure white) and he has taught me more about being a human being than anyone else on this planet. Actually, I listen to his podcasts every night and play them while I'm asleep just to get the good vibes and subconscious programming from him. I love him to bits. On top of that, there are dozens, probably hundreds of white people I've met in my life who have truly, truly made me a better human being, made me economically richer and just healed my soul. Then why the fuck should I carry this stupid, racist, idiotic baggage with me?
I guess all I'm saying is that I'm trying to grow, trying to be a better human being but it's a long process. I love you all. Btw I just finished all my exams and classes so I've basically graduated
. Anyway, happy holidays to all <3.
