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Getting rid of bullshit baggage I've been carrying around for decades

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, Dec 13, 2015.

  1. pewep

    pewep Power Member

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    Hey guys,

    I had a bit of a revelation moment over the last few weeks. I've just graduated and one of the gifts that I've had from the Supreme One is the ability to empathize on a deep level with people.

    I think I was racist, homophobic and misogynistic. I don't say that lightly, because I've always considered myself to be as left wing as it gets. Anyway, for some reason I stumbled on a worldstar video called "throw that boy p*ssy out" and watched it. I felt super, super uncomfortable because it was a gay person describing explicit sexual acts to his partners. I have ZERO problems with gay people at all and it's none of my business but honestly that made me wonder: what if all the "sexy" videos I watch of women dancing and twerking, etc... elicit the same reaction out of women who watch it? I felt disgusted with myself and disturbed, is this what women feel when they look at porn and rap videos?

    Another thing is I seem to have a chip on my shoulder with white people. The fact is that my direct Vajrayana teacher is white (like - blond haired, blue eyed pure white) and he has taught me more about being a human being than anyone else on this planet. Actually, I listen to his podcasts every night and play them while I'm asleep just to get the good vibes and subconscious programming from him. I love him to bits. On top of that, there are dozens, probably hundreds of white people I've met in my life who have truly, truly made me a better human being, made me economically richer and just healed my soul. Then why the fuck should I carry this stupid, racist, idiotic baggage with me?

    I guess all I'm saying is that I'm trying to grow, trying to be a better human being but it's a long process. I love you all. Btw I just finished all my exams and classes so I've basically graduated :D. Anyway, happy holidays to all <3.
     
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  2. Ste Fishkin

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    Good for you Pewep - it take a good person to realise that they have flaws and then to take action to fix those flaws.
     
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    Congratulations on graduating.
     
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  4. pewep

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    Thanks guys :), I'm trying...
     
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    Since when have you become so serious? Most of your recent thread are actually helpful, funny or plain serious. What happened Ste?

    Not to bring any hate, but you were the main, if not the best troll in here along with mickyfu.
     
  6. pewep

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    Do you want to summon the Beast?

    Because that's how you summon the Beast.

    Don't get your shit twisted nooby, Ste is and always will be a top tier troll. Now it just so happens that he and I are engaged in a mutually consensual bromance but that does not in any way, shape or form dampen his potency.
     
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    My bad pewep, I did not mean to say anything negative by that. Carry on with your bromance.

    Actually pewep, can you help me with your spirituality? I need expert help with girls.
     
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  8. Ste Fishkin

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    I apologise for not being a troll 24/7, I am sorry my performances are not up to your very high fucking standards. It's almost as if I am not here to learn marketing tips or help people where I can...

    However, if you ever even think as much that I am no longer the number 1 troll out of all 700,000 members of this forum I will be stopping by every fucking candle shop and petrol station from here to whatever shit hole you are from, and I will personally rain down 1000's of petrol bombs on you until you are nothing but fucking dust.

    But don't worry, at least you will burn to death to the scent of sandalwood.
     
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    Anytime man, I'll be there for you.
     
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    For your first paragraph , I was thought the same women don't care about been watching these videos , until I read comment from girls about Girls sexuality app , all I read is "Humiliating disgusting , guys don't watch that .." I never install app like that on my phone since than , what see normal other could see it insulting .
    and I which you best in your future career
     
  11. dgusic

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    Long story short. Know a real life girl, we bonded, we talked and never really talked about anything more. I found her tumblr profile. I social engineered her into telling me everything I wanted to know. I fell in love because she is sweet. How deeply fuckped up am I?

    Note to Ste: I am sorry if I have awaken the beast.
     
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    Woah... That's a bit weird.

    Dude I know you asked pewep but I got you too.

    Just ask her out for a date, if she says no then there's no date and that's that. If you don't ask it's the same outcome.

    I'm guessing you're young? Just get over the fact some girls will say no, it happens. Some will probably say yes, but stop the online stalker shit.

    That's like when serial killers torture animals as children...
     
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  14. pewep

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    Haha, we're just fucking with you dude, btw if you're serious, hit me up on December 24th. Keep in mind I use black magick.
     
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    Haha, actually I am 21, senior college year in business school. THE FUCKED UP THING IS we actually still talk, go out, we even kissed on multiple occasions. I got to deep into this shit haven't I? Should I tell her the truth or simply stop it?

    EDIT: behind a computer I just feel much better, more powerulful. I am not even ugly (was told so) or fat.
     
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    Ok shes into you.

    So why are you wasting our time asking us about this? Just ask her out, she will say yes.
     
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    Because I know how fucked up it sounds when I would tell her that I socially engineered her. This is actually one of the most fucked up things I have ever done, on par with mass porn upload.
     
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    Trust me dude, people have done WAAAAAAY worse things to get with a girl, myself included.
     
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    So, I should definitely tell her everything?