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Fuck IM, I can't take this shit anymore.

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by Savant1709, Oct 23, 2016.

  1. Savant1709

    Savant1709 Registered Member

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    Hey there.

    I must have tried to write this 20 times now.

    I'm at the end of the line fellas...

    I am just heartbroken, I lost it all due to my own stupid fantasies and incompetence.

    God damn it, I don't know what to do anymore.

    I have been ptting sweat and tears into this thing for a long time now, and all I got out of it was pain....
    I started losing things slowly, but surely...

    Look at who you became you fucking idiot.....

    You keep balming it eberything else but youself you fool....

    omg what fif you do to youselefm hwo did it come to dis?

    I'm sorry.....

    Look hoow [ppathetic I have become,

    I'm sobbing in the dark alone.. I jad plans hggod damn it.

    I had plans, I had dreams, but's all slipping away.
    I lost my friends, my family, my girl, all because of pride in this fucking work.

    I thoughy I could do it.
    I read all manners of threads, I learned as best as I could.
    I took notes, I did it all.
    I read and re-red threads as many times as I could, writing everything down.

    I watched courses..

    I did weverything, I invested what little money i had to begin with.
    I put al my time into this. Got my first haircut yesterday in months...

    Havcen't shaved though.

    I left everything behind to do this work.

    IM isn't for everyone.
    I gave it my all. I gave everything up to ttry to be successful.

    years, months, weeks, days, countless hours I've devoted to this.
    Now what do I have to show?

    Shit, nothing nothing. Fucking nothing.
    Look at me, I don't have anything anymore...
    I want to fucking die.
    I wan to die.
    But I can't kill myself, but I hate life.
    I hate my life man. I fucking hate my life, I hate what I become.

    Please someone how do I fucking end the pain.
    Someone end the pain. Please....

    I am a defeeated man, by his own failure to succeed/
    Somone come here and end this fucking suffereing..
     
  2. Alchemizt

    Alchemizt Regular Member

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    You have hit the bottom. Now you can only go up from here. Take your time and experience the pain for what it is. Allow it. Then let it pass.

    Now you are ready to pick up the pieces and fucking succeed my friend. Get mad. Get even. Channel all that pain and anger into new motivation. It's time to win my friend. Use all of that energy (the pain is powerful) to blast yourself forward.

    Be a fucking champion. We all fall. The champion rises like a Phoenix from the ashes and that is what you will do now. Do it. Now.
     
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    from your threads. I can see you have only tried dropshipping. (goddamit every one is doing dropshipping after that world of harry shit ).

    Take it easy man. Keep your mind away from bhw and im for few weeks (watch a movie/ go out/ drink/ sleep ) and start fresh.
     
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    keep saying this will not help you but will make you worst , ask yourself what you learned from your failures , taking action isn't just being in motion , .e.g. reading courses about IM this is motion , preparing decent product or service to sell this is action ..... update your mentality ......
     
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    Hey man I was just like you a few months ago, I had earned well over $100,000, yes one hundred thousand dollars in IM for a certain niche, but I blew it all on drugs and stupid shit. I was at rock bottom when I realised I should have saved it all and invested in something that could live on forever, but I didn't invest, I blew every fucking dollar. Since then, I've corrected all my mistakes, gotten clean from drugs/alcohol and I've managed to start up a new venture in IM which is earning me good money (not as much as before, but it's keeping me comfortable where I am right now). I guess you need to just cry it out, but get straight back into something, god has a plan for everyone man, if you keep trying and trying, doors will open up for you and lead you to happiness, whether it is in IM or something else. It will all fall into place, just don't give up on your life yet! I feel you bro, I really do.
     
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  7. SkullGuy

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    Trust me when I say this. The end can be your beginning. Get some rest. Then get out and do something. Networking with real people is immensely helpful.

    There are guys that make a decent living with IM in the traditional sense. But to be honest, most people aren't going to succeed at it consistently. Find someone to mentor you, go to rotary, or business clubs that meet in person.
     
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    There is your problem, reading threads here. Most of them are wrote by fucking fantasists, who are broke as fuck.
     
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    As long as you're happy
     
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  10. Donniefred

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    Truth is fucking bitter!:D
     
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  11. Savant1709

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    I don't know anymore people.

    Like someone else pointed out.
    I'm a drop-shipper. I invested all my time and energy on that.
    It failed miserably.

    I did other things before drop-shipping. This account is old.
    Nothing ever worked out.

    You say he only way to go now is up.
    But how?
    I've always been at the bottom.

    How do I go up?

    At this point in time after all I did, I don't even want to make "bank"
    I just want to make enough to pay the rent, and pay for food.
    I've given up already, it's either a miracle happens now, or just go work in McDonalds...

    You know what kills me the most.

    I never had a passion for anything else in life.

    IM is something I took pride in doing, I felt happy. I felt like I was doing something worth doing.
    I had drive, I had a fucking passion for the first time in my life.

    Too much pride, and not accepting my failures earlier have led me to this.
    I destroyed myself.

    I did.

    What do I do?
    What?

    How do I keep the dream alive.

    I don't want to quit. This is what I love.
    But I can't see a way to get it to work.

    At this point in time, I have no job.
    No family,
    No woman,
    $18 in my account.

    And one last month before I can't even pay the rent.

    How the fuck do I go up from here?
    I've been trying to go up for a long time now.

    Just how?
     
  12. ChrisX

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    I see you've listed your occupation as "Trying to make $$$".
    People don't give a shit about you wanting to make money - who doesn't? Maybe look into what value you can bring to the table that others would be willing to pay you for. You'll start seeing things in a different light.
     
  13. SkullGuy

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    Quit operating from a fear center
     
  14. Themanhere

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    Yeah I wouldn't spending too much time reading BHW (or any IM sites) for complete strategies. Most give you just enough info to make it look like they're providing value, but the devil is in the detail and they leave A LOT to the imagination.

    That being said, you can look at methods shared here and other places, and think of inventive ways to make them your own. Just get the general idea and fill in the MANY blanks with your own strategies.

    I didn't start making money in IM until I stopped trying to follow methods exactly, and made things my own. It's also more important to actually take action and learn from your mistakes. Constantly reading will get you alot of knowledge, but applying it to the real world is completely different.
     
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  15. Savant1709

    Savant1709 Registered Member

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    I'm not following methods either.

    I'm doing my own shit.
    But it doesn't work.

    I've re-invented myself A dozen times.
    Tried a bunch of things.
    Nothing. NOTHING.

    I just don't know where to turn to anymore.

    I hit a road-block.
     
  16. arjona

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    What did you try? Did you split-test your efforts at every stage?

    Coming here and publishing your frustration is definitely a good sign that you're not over yet and you actually want to rise, which is great! You seem to be depressed, and maybe addressing this issue with a health professional could help you get back on track.

    Best of success man! You'll make it.
     
  17. Alchemizt

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    Your problems seem big to you now but one day you will look back on this day with a big smile on your face and a heart full of pride. Success is twice as sweet when you have struggled for it with life and limb.

    I say this from experience. I remember fondly those hungry nights I spent sleeping in the car because I refused to give up my dreams. I've been to the bottom. It made me who I am. Tomorrow I will deposit a check for $20k into the bank, my earnings for this month alone.

    Give up now and live forever with regret. Or...get back up and fight for your dreams like your fucking life depends on it.
     
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  18. Vapys

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    I'm not a IM'er but perhaps one of the people who are claiming to have earned 5 or 6 figures yearly would be kind enough to reach out to this gentleman in need and help him out.

    I know web design and seo if OP needs assistance in that section. I'm more than willing to help there.
     
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  19. Alchemizt

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    That's a nice thought but op needs to help himself now or he never will.
     
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    What a heavy life for you dude. Get some rest to calm down your mind. dont push your body too much,is not good. After you get a rest,you may come back with refresh mind. By the way,where is your parents?