Hello, my name is rpkrocks. I live in the suburban city of Gwalior, India. I have been a member of Blackhatworld since 2009 but knew about it even before that. In this thread, I would like to share my experience with all BHW members and visitors. So, where shall I start? Let's see... Before understanding what I went through and how I went through, you must understand the beginnings. The beginnings (1991 to 2009) I was born with quite a lot of expectations. I believed and was told to believe that I was someone special. That I have the gift to be someone big. For some years, I walked the talk. My grades were great from the first standard to the fifth standard, and I was always among the top 3 in my class. Then due to my faults, as I analyzed later, like not doing regular work and not taking my life with seriousness, I started to degrade slowly. In the sixth standard, I got 85 percentile while in seventh, 76. In eighth, the grades went even below to 72%. The ninth was bad too while I recovered a bit in tenth with 75%. As my grades were degrading, my thinking also started to change. From thinking of becoming someone big in life, I began to believe that the only days I will enjoy in my life will be my college days. Then it's only work and family. As I was fat and was bullied by others, I started bullying myself. Those two years, from 2007 to 2009, of my high school, gave me a lot of laughter and enjoyment. On the other hand, my parents didn't like the direction of my life and were very concerned. Day and night were only one thing - ridicule. It didn't matter to me much. Why? Because I was living happily, had friends and had people to bully. However, I was not aware that things were starting to change for the worse. The worst days (2009 to mid-2010) In March 2009, after passing my high school, I started thinking "happy days are here to come," but they never came. Due to my faults and some contribution from my family, I didn't join the colleges that my friends were joining rather I went to a community college which was creaky as hell. Negativity started growing in me, and I started throwing myself into a depressive hellhole. All day, I used to cry. My situation was bad, really bad. I even thought, "why not end this life if it's not worth it." I used to say regularly "God, please give me a chance. Only one success will do." And I got one. My first chance (2010 to 2011) From abusing various religions on social networking sites to lurking on hack forums, lastly, I found a way to make some money. What was that way? Tradebit. With Tradebit, I was able to make $ 30-$ 40 a month. I made some money from Hotfile and other sources too, but that wasn't enough. I can't remember the exact date but on August or September 2011, I received Rs. 8000 in my friend's account. Life became lovable; things started to shine, and I was euphoric. Yes, the only thing that I was good at was making me some money. However, I was sloppy in taking action. The second chance (2011 to 2012) Not taking action became a thorn in my way to succeed. Nevertheless, I was making a decent amount of money from Tradebit without doing anything. Tradebit was making me around $ 150 per month. What more do I want? But people who joined Blackhatworld way after me were making more than that in a day. Since I didn't need much money, I remained sitting and watching other succeed. Wasting time became my hobby, and whatever work I did, did half-heartedly. Then Tradebit deleted almost all of my accounts. Glory and the wasted third chance (2013 to 2015) When Tradebit deleted my accounts, I had nothing. From making over $ 200 per month, I came to as low as $ 30 per month. Many people were making a lot of money from CPA and YouTube, so I decided to try that. And I succeeded. You can check my old journey http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/my-journey-discussions/567562-rpkrocks-journey-100-day-3-months-now.html. My first video made me almost $ 15 per day for at least 3 to 4 months till it got deleted. My long-standing problem of not taking stringent action constantly again came in the way. I tell my sister many times "money was sitting in a bag just outside my door, and I never opened it." 2014 was a complete waste, and there is nothing to tell about it. It's better to move to 2015. In March 2015, I decided that I will again try YouTube marketing. And it again worked. The stupid dumbass in me again rose and told me, "wait, let's not put all energy in YouTube until it's entirely sure that all videos are ranking this way." I agreed. YouTube decided that dumbasses like me do not deserve more time, and it came with an algorithm that made it impossible for instantly-boosted videos to rank. I decided, it's time to try PBN after reading the journey of Pankage. The last chance and up to present From June 2015 onwards, I tried pbn for 3 months and then ultimately left them as I had no money to buy domains and stuff. From August, it became hard for me to come to Blackhatworld. I started hating Internet marketing and the thought that came into my mind was "why not try a 9-to-5 job and, at least, make something?" I decided that I will join a 9-to-5 job if I don't succeed in making at least $ 10 per day till mid-2016. For doing that, I started reading English grammar from 26 December 2015. My intent was to give the best shot that I can in this last chance. I did. Everything and anything in my life stopped, and I focused on how to write better. Note that I'm not a native speaker, and it's quite hard for me to understand the proper word usage. I still many times think in my native language while constructing sentences in English. Nevertheless, things started to work for me as I began to work hard, really hard. I understood the basic fundamental that will govern my life from then onwards - those people succeed who work, not who say. Shut the brain and work became my new mantra. And I'm here making $ 15 per day and thinking to make much more. Yes, many of you think that it's quite low (even lower than the least paying jobs in your countries), but it's a stable income for me which saves me from ridicule and gives me hope for the future.