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Feeling scared about my black magick past

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  1. pewep

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    Hey guys, I hope all is going well and I love you lots :).

    Anyway, I have been having extremely graphic and detailed dreams over the last few days regarding the left hand path - aka black magick. I used to practice this basically daily and honestly it is a really core part of me. Anyway, I stopped it because I felt like I want to spread positivity and light and I can't do that while practicing black magick. I was fine for many weeks/months but I have noticed something.

    In my dreams, I see myself being an evil sorcerer. It's not voluntary at all, it just comes to me and honestly it scared me a lot. I had a dream last night where an extremely powerful black magician was teaching me the fundamentals of demon evocation. I already know how to summon demons, but anyway we were going through the procedure and we summoned an immensely powerful entity and it frightened me. At the same time, I was in awe and had admiration for the warlock who was teaching me.

    I was just wondering if you guys had any insight on my path. I feel like I can comfortably lay down my black magick roots and never look back but on the other hand, I really miss the power and the darkness. It is seriously addictive and to be frank, nothing makes you feel more alive than casting a spell and watching it bend reality.

    Love you all :),

    Pew
     
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    God I have so much money I really have no idea what to do with it.
     
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    I thank you for your concern, but honestly, I'm kind of beyond that.
     
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    Your story, taken as a metaphor, describes my recent situation and dreams lately. It's hard to walk down the "right" path sometimes when you know what else is out there, but remember the fear because there's a lot of darkness down that path too bro.
     
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    Oh man, it's been a long, long time since we talked. How are you doing btw bro?
     
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    i was going to use a cocaine and weed metaphor but this is better
     
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    Pm sent :), I would love to hear from you bro.
     
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    Have you tried drinking something else before bed? Apple juice also gives me nightmares.
     
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    Help me have that problem...
     
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    Not at home tonight will talk later though :)
     
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    One of my best friends was called Connor. Am I looking at a substitute?
     
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    I honestly think that you're being shown the future by -- your own subconscious. That's an alarm for you...

    Why do you think that by turning around from the present would make you powerless? May be turning NOW will still make you areal hero for and of the people, a bigger and admirable one! May be it will cause the publicity and attraction that you're seeking come to you, rather than the other way around as it seems to be happening now!

    The darkness you're seeing needs to be conquered, and you can be the guidepost to show the light for the people who are coming there running after similar mirages! No one can hurt you at this position and in a black magical way unless you allow them them hurt you. I know of a real kind-hearted black magician who turned himself from a similar situation, and his spiritual growth has been very focused and admirable after he tamed his mind which was running un-reined in a black dark world. After he lost his lady love forever in an accident, he stopped and thought for many years, but that was the day he turned around for good. He still uses the black magic to ruin some people, but those criminals have already lost the meaning of humanity, so I don't blame him a bit for what he is doing to them. Hmm... the dreams are there for a special cause it seems! :)
     
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    Hello,

    a dream can only be a dream, right?

    You can consider it as a sign, a sight of the future, but it can be only something unrelated.

    Can't you do this with "White magic"? You can cast spells, help other people and bend reality. And you can be powerful if you're reckoned as "someone who can help the other" (but in the good way).
     
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    You can / Can you try to create quality backlinks with the help of your darkredhat expertise? You can create unique content using your special friends' out of the world English language skills. :) You can help the NASA scientists to create red-hot blood in outer space. You can also sew close the ozone-layer holes, and stop the global warming with the powerful friends of yours! Think... There will be your statues on the biggest pedestals all over the world, and all those pigeons will even keep their shit to themselves when they rest over your head and shoulders!:D

    You Can Never Be A Loser with the knowledge you already have! So, Cheer Up mate! :)
     
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    Just PM me prince pewep.
     
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    Yo I didn't know this actually existed. Wow is an entire new world for me. Now I'm kind of scared actually :S