Do not read unless if you dont have patience because this is going to be a long one!

Hey everyone, wow. just wow. BHW is definitely not what i expected. I heard it a few times throughout the years but never really checked it out until recently. What the mods are doing here are really great.

A little about me. Im 19 going 20 in april 2020, I have been in the marketing game for coming on 3 years in early 2020 and have made oh lord so many failures. I followed the guru route which fucked me up for about a year.

Whats even worse than that is the mindset he put in my head. it was the wrong mindset and when im 17 im really impressionable so it really stuck around for alot longer than i would have liked.

This life for me all started because i saw that my family didnt have any money and to be frank i was sick of doing illegal shit to get by. it wasnt for me. i saw their personalities, lifestyle, even clothing and was disgusted.

I started off with FB back before the ban hammer came along. made a few sales nothing pretty but it got me excited. I then went onto a few other things then landed on natives the past idk say 16 months.

The only issue for me is i have severe anxiety and depression so it really fucks with me. i would have to take a month off or a few months i would lose progress then start over.

And another big thing was i didnt have patience. I would save 1k then run natives like the big boys and expect to find a winner when i didnt even spend enough for statistical significance!

Fast forward now. My anxiety got worse but now its calming down as well as the depression. But its still bad enough where i cant get a job.

So now i am left no choice but to hustle and do low profit low money needed strategies to get back on my feet.

It's hard enough being cursed out by the family for doing online work for a few years and spending all my money. you know. being Romanian from the village means unless your back is broken your not a man.

Anyways I do apologize im usually alot better with my words but its really late here and i can barely think.

Ill be doing some offline side jobs where i can to save extra money. pay the phone bill at least to not have that worry.


Thats all i have for today folks.

Cheers!

Welcome to Blackhatworld, forget the opinions of family. Once you get up and running in marketing they will long forget they once told you to quit.

You will get there. And congratulations on being able to break free of the thinking you've grown up with. On the upside, there have never been more opportunities to make a living from online work than there are today. Keep reading everything on the forum, find a business model that resonates with you and that uses your particular skillset and go for it.

Was a good read. Very relatable. Thank you for sharing. The main points I seem to have taken from your text is that you put too much pressure on yourself too succeed and your motivation to succeed seems to be slightly misplaced. As mentioned above, you're heading in a positive direction and as long as you don't talk too much about what you're trying to do, then you don't have to worry about the opinions of others.

Your anxiety and depression could be also to do with worrying about your health in general and feeling overwhelmed. Maybe a normal job outside of your main city (but not too far of course) where you can be yourself will be your best option now.

keep on Walking don't stop...........
Keep learning and earning, all the best.