sept 2010 - burried my best pall http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/308279-when-thanks-just-isnt-enough.html christmas 2012 burried my mom on my birthday http://www.blackhatworld.com/blackhat-seo/blackhat-lounge/510895-my-mom-passed-away-my-birthday.html today got a call about 6pm from my step brother, father passed away mon, heart attack, took em 3 days to track me down, havnt spoken with them in 26 yrs, now im in quandry funeral, to go or not to go that is the question, mother gone last year, orphaned at 44....and both just b4 Christmas, anything else . some wounds never heal, and this 1 runs deep, no details but i have every reason not to go, why i cut my ties 26 yrs ago. i can send flowers and leave it at that, saves all the people wondering why show up after 26 yrs and think im after something, difficult to pay respects to a person u cant respect. i have my reasons. what to do, what to do.