hi, i am getting pretty disillusioned with seo now. i bought a tripple x domain when they came out. I got a domain, set up the site, built some natural links, filled it with content, SEO'd it. bookmarked it. bought a few gigs on fiverr. nothing special. not particularly blackhat. not worth de-indexing me over. i then used highprsociety and got some paid links. seriously though, a few pr 2, pr3s etc.. i only spent 50 on it. and i have had the website for a while so it wasn't like i bought it and slammed it with a billion links... i got to page 1 and was listed 4th. i was sooo happy. i went from 20 visitors a day to 200 visitors a day. i was over the moon. i know this is a bulls**t amount of visitors but it was like a green shoot of hope. i thought that with the amount of time, money and effort that i had spent on it... and i had spent a lot of time in particular, that things were going well. but since thurs/friday i have dropped altogether out of the rankings for the keywords (i can't even tell you the url or keywords because this spam system on bhw won't let me - great) and now my homepage won't even come up when i type the url - it also hasn't been indexed since thurs/fri even though i have pinged it, bookmarked it manually, submitted a sitemap to webmaster tools, asked to reindex it and built a blog link to it. so i think google has fu**ed me. in bing i am there on page 1, 5th result. but hey, who gives a sh*t about bing. man i am so f**king depressed. i have wasted so much of my time on it, and yeah paid links are bad, and yeah fiverr gigs aren't gold dust, but come on man, why are google being such a bunch of c**ts! so i guess my question is, am i sandboxed? or am i gone forever? do you think it was the paid links that got me taken out? why won't google re-index my homepage even though it has re-indexed other pages on my site? it's my homepage itself that it won't touch... so is my site now worthless? sorry for the rant. i just feel crushed after working so hard, and to be honest i don't think i have done anything wrong. buying a few paid links is not murder is it. to$$ers. so it's fine to pay to be at the top of google through adwords, provided google gets its fu**ing cash, but spending 50 dollars on a few pr3s and getting some bookmarks is worth them kicking me out of their w*nky search engine? FU** GOOGLE AND F**K SEO. is my site dead now or is there any hope that it will magically return? even though this is a very negative and maybe childish post i would really appreciate any feedback... even if you give me a hard time and call me a b**ch. i would really like to learn how google has gone about fu**ing me up the a** and ruined my week. thanks in advance.