First off, shout out to my home boy Zwiezzie for making it out of the troll swamps to the top of the food chain. You give us hope brah ___ Secondly, I know I'm not supposed to be doing this because my master told me to keep my psionic powers locked in and to continue absorbing energy into my LDT until level 4....but the thing is it really does make me feel depressed and lost when I don't use my abilities or channel energy. I can actually feel this in the left side of my brain (slightly above my ear) like being very thirsty and not knowing exactly what to do about it. So today I was just feeling kind of frustrated and a bit bored to meditate (bad pew, BAD) and I just wanted to release. I glanced at a spoon in my bedroom that's about 3 feet away and the second I did it started spinning. LOL! THAT was crazy. I tried to control it but I had zero control whatsoever, it was just dancing around on its own accord. Shit! I think I'm leaking jing...but anyway that was quite a relief. Usually geisting isn't very fun (uncontrolled pk) and it's usually just knocks, raps, light pulsing, chairs, etc... but this was actually pretty cool. I had started thinking that I had lost my powers. That's really what happens when I don't use ESP. I start feeling like I'm nothing and everything is just in my head. I need to focus on the long term goal of enlightenment instead of chasing the abilities. But I don't think I was cheating because I didn't mean to use pk, it just happened. Anyway, just a little Thursday night shenanigan from your dear lad, carry on.