Forgive me brothers and sisters for I have sinned. I was in the grocery store today and there were massive lines. Luckily I came at the right time and one opened up for me and allowed me to check my items out while other people had been there for like 30 minutes. Anyway, a person with some kind of mental illness was right behind me and started saying something. I couldn't understand him at all and he was making rapid movements with his hands...to be honest it kind of unnerved me so I tried to keep as calm as possible. But he was trying to talk to me...I didn't say a word. Just glanced at him and continued with the checkout. He kind of shut down after that and didn't say anything and stopped making rapid movements. I left as quickly as possible after that. I was cold to him. Icy, actually. I'm usually very, very good with people who have mental illnesses and I'm usually quite warm because 99% of the time they aren't violent or hostile to me at all but for some reason I just didn't extend that man any warmth. I didn't do anything to try to relive him of his incredible suffering...as if I don't know what it's like to be invisible...to be rejected..to be alone in this world. That was bad, I should have said anything, given him even a smile and acknowledged him as a fellow human being worthy of respect, love and support. I don't want to be cold, I want to be warm and open to everyone..every situation, every experience and every state of being. Mahamudra is the great space, the emptiness of being, big enough to hold anything and everything at the same time. Enough space for that man and I to share and understand one another. I was not following my buddhist vows of compassion to all beings and openness to every facet of creation, and for that I apologize - to my master, to the man, and to everyone who will be affected by that dark moment. I promise to always extend warmth to every person and creature I encounter and never, ever be cold and hard hearted.