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Confessions 5/29/2017

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by pewep, May 29, 2017.

  1. pewep

    pewep Power Member

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    Forgive me brothers and sisters for I have sinned.

    I was in the grocery store today and there were massive lines. Luckily I came at the right time and one opened up for me and allowed me to check my items out while other people had been there for like 30 minutes. Anyway, a person with some kind of mental illness was right behind me and started saying something. I couldn't understand him at all and he was making rapid movements with his hands...to be honest it kind of unnerved me so I tried to keep as calm as possible. But he was trying to talk to me...I didn't say a word. Just glanced at him and continued with the checkout. He kind of shut down after that and didn't say anything and stopped making rapid movements. I left as quickly as possible after that.

    I was cold to him. Icy, actually. I'm usually very, very good with people who have mental illnesses and I'm usually quite warm because 99% of the time they aren't violent or hostile to me at all but for some reason I just didn't extend that man any warmth. I didn't do anything to try to relive him of his incredible suffering...as if I don't know what it's like to be invisible...to be rejected..to be alone in this world. That was bad, I should have said anything, given him even a smile and acknowledged him as a fellow human being worthy of respect, love and support.

    I don't want to be cold, I want to be warm and open to everyone..every situation, every experience and every state of being. Mahamudra is the great space, the emptiness of being, big enough to hold anything and everything at the same time. Enough space for that man and I to share and understand one another. I was not following my buddhist vows of compassion to all beings and openness to every facet of creation, and for that I apologize - to my master, to the man, and to everyone who will be affected by that dark moment. I promise to always extend warmth to every person and creature I encounter and never, ever be cold and hard hearted.
     
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    bartosimpsonio Jr. VIP Jr. VIP Premium Member

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    It's OK he was only trying to warn you about the credit card cloning device on the line you took.
     
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    You are one ice cold mfucker
     
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    back2form Jr. VIP Jr. VIP

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    I remember this Video :D
    While reading your post & that perfectly matches pewep :D:D

     
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  5. pewep

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    Nooo.. :'(
    Lol!
    Shiiieet, I guess that was my karma then :D.
     
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    Well, it wouldn't hurt to be like that. That makes you human and pretty awesome for the realization you got there! :)
     
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    Seems like he was just cussing you out for cutting the line. I don't think he had any mental issue at all.

    To be honest I thought this would be a story of how you laid him out with your qi or whatever it is you have. I'm leaving disappointed mate.
     
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    You shall be forgiven brother if you complete your pennance: 100 Hail Mary's, 50 Our Fathers, and 25 Pledge of Allegiances. :)
     
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    We forgive you @pewep - no Patimokkha punishment for you this time.
     
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    I appreciate this thread and you regretting not acknowledging that man. I've done similar things and I feel terrible nowadays.

    I have one question though. Did you have bad intentions?
     
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    Must. Resist. Making. Joke. About. Politicians.

    [​IMG]
     
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    Dude you speak Tamil ?(Language used in the video) Fan of vadivelu?
     
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    My child, you are forgiven.

    (Just be nicer in future) :cool:
     
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  14. pewep

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    I don't think I had bad intentions, I just didn't want to interact with him because I thought he might do something. I think I was too quick to judge him though. Thanks man :), and I totally empathize with how you feel about those situations.
     
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    Dude I speak Tamil, English, Hindi, Arabic & now learning Japanese as 5th Language..
    Am not Fan of Vadivel. I thought this funny scene while reading pewep post - Does it Matches pewep right ? ;)
     
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    Track him down and take him out to dinner.
     
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    I doubt you had bad intentions either, and that's GOOD.
    So you feared something different compared to yourself or your "norm"?
    It's fine to be on guard and always expect the unexpected, just don't let it hinder your ability to have a first reaction of being kind and useful.
     
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    Don't worry about it God knows your heart everyone has a bad day every once in a while including myself
     
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    LOLOL, sorry homey but thats just fuckin' gay.
     
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    I still don't get it, what did you do 'wrong' though..