Being very disappointed of myself - need help

Well, I just don't know if there's any other forum that I can share my thought - except this

TBH I'm a loser - built and tried and tried like hundreds of time and always fail.

I'm not bad at all - My experience with IM was from gaining level 2 account on Fiverr after two months ( earned like 4k) to making a Facebook campain after the school shooting events ( Sell CB background check service )

In my best month, I earned like 2 to 3k. But now everything is overed. I got a few month off IM to focus on the final collegue test, and then when I comeback, my Fiverr account got closed - my facebook bots get banned and all my site got deindexed.

It was 2 year ago. Now nothing is better. My amz site is just climibng very - very - very slow on Google. 7 month and 25th. My USA election just get a little bit better and I already ran out of money to invest on Facebook bots ( lol ). I joined a SEO company but despite everything I tried, the company just failed me so hard. None of our projects become reals.

Out of money. The projects are going too slow. Tried to find a job on Upwork, Fiverr and Flexjobs but nothing happened. The contract with this shit hole company is coming to an end in 4 months. I dont know what to do now.

Contacted my friend and no one wants to hire me, because they already got the people they need. And I dont have many friend, just about 3 to 4 people .

Can somebody give me advice ? I'm not a newbie, just ask me and show me your ideas about me.

Ideas, Opinions, Everything is welcome. I will take it all.

When the pain gets so hard, it makes you grow. You need to start reading books. Change your mindset (your way of thinking). Read books like Tipping Point, 4 hour work week, Think and Grow Rich. Read every day, and over time you will start to change your thinking into success, and then that's when you will get motivation work what you love. You chasing the money, the money will run away from you. Change your mindset, and everything will work out sooner rather than later. Good luck to you.

seoheroo said:

When the pain gets so hard, it makes you grow. You need to start reading books. Change your mindset (your way of thinking). Read books like Tipping Point, 4 hour work week, Think and Grow Rich. Read every day, and over time you will start to change your thinking into success, and then that's when you will get motivation work what you love. You chasing the money, the money will run away from you. Change your mindset, and everything will work out sooner rather than later. Good luck to you.

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You may get to the point my friend, maybe mindset is the problem. But the time is rush and if I decid to change the mindset by now - I don't think I have enough of time.

Yeah. UPdate. The main keyword of the AMZ site just dropped to nowhere )

What make you think that people will hire someone whose website got de-indexed as a SEO consultant?

Do you have any live result that can prove you are worth to hire, do you have other skill such as programming.

maxchen said:

What make you think that people will hire someone whose website got de-indexed as a SEO consultant?

Do you have any live result that can prove you are worth to hire, do you have other skill such as programming.

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Yes. That's my fail. Absolutely. My man.
I was rush on that site, it was 2 years ago.

But with the new one, I dont thinkso. It took me like 6 months to wait on build the first link. 2.0 only. and I build new 2.0 every two weeks. It was like 5 2.0s by now. I think that is very, very careful number. The site got 25000 words total. And I put the 10k word landing page to the homepage.

Despite that, it's still dropping. Maybe GOD put down Peguin 4.0 just to take my fate.

I have to admit that I am not good at planning a long term. I am not stupid at all - just not stable enough to handle such pain of failure, so when things get hard even a little bit - I become panic and unstable like I am right now, and started to scare everything haha. But this time, my man, this time I waited. This time I waited so long, try to make things slowly. I dont have much money to invest on PBN, so 2.0 is my only choice.

I am not a SEO consultant, I know about SEO but handling the big picture is something out of my head. Please call me a link builder who know what a good link is.

I think I'm good with meticulous stuffs like finding grammar bugs or making explainer videos ( I have life time Powtoon agency account - my teacher gave me - that was the gig I sell on Fiverr ). I can make a pretty good sale funnel like what I have done with my CB campain ( with Getresponse ).

That's all. I dont think it I was the best, just good enough to do something that cool.

P/S: Forgot to mention that I have built for my company a network of 2500 Tumblr with PR, PA, DA and 20% of them get very sweet trust flow. I can do that task again, but I don't know if people out there on BHW love it. Feel like a scammer if I sell such thing at this time.

buihals said:

Yes. That's my fail. Absolutely. My man.
I was rush on that site, it was 2 years ago.

But with the new one, I dont thinkso. It took me like 6 months to wait on build the first link. 2.0 only. and I build new 2.0 every two weeks. It was like 5 2.0s by now. I think that is very, very careful number. The site got 25000 words total. And I put the 10k word landing page to the homepage.

Despite that, it's still dropping. Maybe GOD dropped down Peguin 4.0 just to take my fate.

I have to admit that I am not good at planning a long term. I am not stupid at all - just not stable enough to handle such pain of failure, so when things get hard even a little bit - I become panic and unstable like I am right now, and started to scare everything haha. But this time, my man, this time I waited. This time I waited so long, try to make things slowly. I dont have much money to invest on PBN, so 2.0 is my only choice.

I am not a SEO consultant, I know about SEO but handling the big picture is something out of my head. Please call me a link builder who know what a good link is.

I think I'm good with meticulous stuffs like finding grammar bugs or making explainer videos ( I have life time Powtoon agency account - my teacher gave me - that was the gig I sell on Fiverr ). I can make a pretty good sale funnel like what I have done with my CB campain ( with Getresponse ).

That's all. I dont think it I was the best, just good enough to do something that cool.

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5 web 2.0 and you expect your rank to up, good enough to do something that cool yet your rank still falling?

No doubt you got a lot of content, but you just keep pumping content in and think it will successful.

The hard truth:
You are not convincing enough to make me buy you. Thats probably what your friend think too.

You need to consistent improve yourself and don't think you learn enough, because I believe I know far more than you but I feel I got more to learn.

buihals said:

I'm not bad at all - My experience with IM was from gaining level 2 account on Fiverr after two months ( earned like 4k) to making a Facebook campain after the school shooting events ( Sell CB background check service )

In myall.

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Hey so... I've always avoided FIverr, because it's only $5 per gig. And i'm a writer, so $5 for even a 250-word article is not good.

I'm wondering how you made $4,000 in 2 months on Fiverr? Is that like normal? Did it take a lot of hours? Is Fiverr actually good?

maxchen said:

5 web 2.0 and you expect your rank to up, good enough to do something that cool yet your rank still falling?

No doubt you got a lot of content, but you just keep pumping content in and think it will successful.

The hard truth:
You are not convincing enough to make me buy you. Thats probably what your friend think too.

You need to consistent improve yourself and don't think you learn enough, because I believe I know far more than you but I feel I got more to learn.

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I know you are giving me words from your heart. I'm very appreciate that. I dont expect it to rank, just not to drop like that.

And I'm not trying to make you buy me lolololol. I'm not that cheap. I just answer your questions. With my friends they already knew what I can do. They just already got the people they need, that's the truth. And I'm not much better than their staffs.

Get socialized, go to meetings, club and meet people to change your mind and thoughts. than you get clear understandings.

JV1999 said:

Hey so... I've always avoided FIverr, because it's only $5 per gig. And i'm a writer, so $5 for even a 250-word article is not good.

I'm wondering how you made $4,000 in 2 months on Fiverr? Is that like normal? Did it take a lot of hours? Is Fiverr actually good?

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It was late 2013 and I got some loyal customers who resell my videos. Focus on the extras my dear. I charge them 5 bucks for 1 min. 10 bucks for 3 more mins and 20 foc 6 more mins. I provide writing video script too. Be creative. I tried to get back to the business but the competition is hard now.

Fiverr closed my account due to some copyright activity. Don't know what is the cause specifically but maybe because I used some scraped images in my videos.

DanielDonahue said:

Get socialized, go to meetings, club and meet people to change your mind and thoughts. than you get clear understandings.

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You just said exactly what I hate the most.

buihals said:

You just said exactly what I hate the most.

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Yeah exactly! Dude if I had to socialize and network to make money online, then I wouldn't bother making money online? I'd go make money irl. It's easy to make money when you go make connections.

I just wanna do the work and be done with it, not go hold hands and smile on FB with stranger I really don't care about. It feels really disgusting and draining. Do it for friends, not for strangers.

JV1999 said:

Yeah exactly! Dude if I had to socialize and network to make money online, then I wouldn't bother making money online? I'd go make money irl. It's easy to make money when you go make connections.

I just wanna do the work and be done with it, not go hold hands and smile on FB with stranger I really don't care about. It feels really disgusting and draining. Do it for friends, not for strangers.

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Being socialize was never my choice - I wanna stay away from people. That's why I got just a little amout of friend dispite I have been in this industry for 3 years.
If I wanna go as a man with connections and friends, I would rather selling high quality PA DA tumblr account. That job makes me feel like scammer, but not as bad as being a socialize man - meeting people instead of chatting is not for me.

I'll leave this with you.

"Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not: nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not: the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."

daewoo45 said:

I'll leave this with you.

"Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not: nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not: the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent."

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You are saying the words of my mind