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About to make an irreversible life choice,

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by CPANathan, Nov 6, 2019.

  1. CPANathan

    CPANathan Regular Member

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    What's life when drugs got your mind and your body at the same time? Like I love me some ganja but waking up without a J will have me upset, ended up on the H by mistake and that's pain all day. Xanax will do them both at the same time. What are we if drugs got a grip on everything you do

    I'm lowkey feeling like no matter how many more days I do I won't get the same grip I have on life. 40 days sober today and still feel like I wanna die
     
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    BRO IM HIGH IM ON ALRPOZALAM EVERYDAY U DONT EVER FEEL YOU FACER

    YOU NEED BITCHES MONEY AND PERICO FUCK SOCIAL CONSTRUCTIONS
     
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    Well done for 40 days. Now just keep powering through. It takes a fair while for your body and mind to adjust.
    You just have to plod through in the meantime.
    Day 90 will feel different to day 40 I guarantee it.
     
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    LIFE IS THE CONCEPT OF ACHIEVE SOCIAL STATUS

    WE ARE APES ON SEARCH OF DOPAMINE, WHAT ARE WE WHAT ARE COSMOS FUCKING EXISTENCIALISM HOPE U CAN FEEL GOOD WITH SOCIAL CONSTRUCTIONS
     
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    I'd use the money to buy a nice watch . Still a daily reminder of the hurdles you had to overcome in your life, but you are definitely not going to regret getting a watch while you can change your mind about the tattoo in the future .
     
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    100%

    It's not that I ever had a problem with alcohol, but I decided to stop drinking altogether in December 2017. The first three months were pretty tough. It wasn't much fun being the person who wasn't drinking when I was hanging out with my friends. However, after three months I got adjusted and it feels great to be sober ALL THE TIME. Also, you start to realize how dumb some people look when they are drunk.
     
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    If you were to ask me, something material really helps to remember your goal, when I overcomed my sugar addiction I wore a ring to remember me to stop. On the other hand a ring is not a permanent mark in your body.


    Yes, sugar addiction
     
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    Do as thou wilt shall be the whole of the law. Love is the law. Love under will.
     
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    how can you control your addiction if you dont believe in your ability to go past a month.the most basic form of mind control is reputation.
     
  10. CPANathan

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    I'm gonna have to get @HiPurple to translate this one for me

    Usually there are 28-31 days in a month and we out here on 40 man...
     
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    you don't need a translator, i am responding to your initial post 'I'm only a month sober.' anything addictive is hard to quite coming from experience,
    your post seems like your contradicting your self. having a tattoo as a reminder is a big step but useless if you cant remind your self why you have it.good luck
     
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    A sticky note at the corner of your screen does the same thing.
    The symbol looks neat though.
     
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    Save your money why don't you put the picture as your screensaver or on your phone to look at instead of permanently scarring your body. You need to get out of the mindset that you are "only" a month sober ( now 40 days) and the best advice is to take it day by day. You don't want to regret getting the tat years down the line.
     
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    Wouldn't bother, still harming your body in another way. Do you want another permanent scar? Just get a picture on your wall or something.
     
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    Usually AA and similar recovery groups do this using chips, like casino chips.

    No need for a permanent tattoo IMO, but if you really want it, then you're free.

    Give yourself rewards when you hit milestones. Buy yourself something cool when you hit 3 months, get something you really wanted or go eat somewhere you looked forward to when you hit 6 months, 1year and so on.

    Good luck bro.
     
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    Really enjoyed reading all the comments, both OP's and other family member here.
    But I agree with some, I don't think tattoo will help. But new environment will surely do! - I got my experience from this too.

    Of course without leaving your self-motivation and control behind.

    Pack some stuff and get a new life. New friend.
    Move on the journey like you're never addicted. And one day you'll be succeed and remembering those... you can only smile... funny old stuff... that you can tell the audience on...
     
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    growing up I have seen countless of friends becoming an addict. Some of them OD and died. Few of them still alive and sucking out last bit of blood from their beloved mother and father. I have seen how much hell of a life it could be for both the addict and family members.

    Kudos to you sir for staying silver.

    Now go workout and meditate the shit out of yourself every time you have some types of urge.