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A Heartfelt Thank You To BHW

Discussion in 'BlackHat Lounge' started by oldenstylehats, Jan 26, 2010.

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  1. oldenstylehats

    oldenstylehats Elite Member Premium Member

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    I originally wrote this post when I first got back last week. I have been spending most of my time resting and relaxing and thus, never posted it. After really processing this whole situation, I still feel the same way:

    For the first time in many years, I am at a complete loss for words. "Thank you" comes to mind, but seems trite and quite meaningless in light of the massive amount of support I have received from this community, family, and friends over the course of the past week or so. All of your abundantly kind words, both on this forum and in the many emails that I have received have left me feeling the kind of warmth that I wish all of those who are currently suffering in any way could feel.

    I never meant to make any of this a public matter, though I am not upset with those that did. My emails to certain staff members, sent in secret thanks to a very helpful nurse, were some of my only contact with the outside world during what was by far the worst period of time in my life. Hours spent in absolute fear that I had somehow messed up my life in the most catastrophic way imaginable. The accident was, in many ways, a positive thing. It brought to light some very dangerous habits and behaviors that I have integrated into my lifestyle over the past 5 years.

    Those that know me well, know that it isn't uncommon for me to work 20 hour days. Those that know me very well, know that it isn't uncommon for me to work 48 hour days, catching a few hours of sleep on the couch near my office when complete exhaustion takes hold. I very rarely take time off from work. I have been driven for years by an indescribable need to acquire, internalize, and put into action the abundant amount of knowledge that exists in our world. In the end, though I do feel lucky to have had the opportunities that I have had, it has left me completely exhausted and sick. Though before the accident I exercised regularly and maintain a reasonably healthy diet, the lack of sleep and heaping amounts of stress that I put onto myself have left me with the body of a considerably older man. While I have felt this every single day for the last few years, this most recent downtime has made it crystal clear that I need to dramatically change my lifestyle. What this means exactly, I am not entirely sure of yet, but I know that I will be able to accomplish this change with the support of my family, friends, and this community.

    What I can say at this point, while cliche, is incredibly important; take care of yourselves physically and mentally.

    So, to the BHW community at large, thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

    There will be some big news coming in the next week regarding blackhatzen. To customers waiting for responses and updates, the wait will not last much longer. I'll leave it at that for now.

    Thanks again,
    oldenstylehats
     
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  2. tymillz

    tymillz Super Moderator Staff Member Moderator Jr. VIP

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    Welcome back bro !!!
     
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  3. ukescuba

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    Glad to see you back! :)

    If you ever start getting close to 20+hr days again remember to check back and look at this thread!

    I am guilty of it too but events in the past 6 months have made me change the way i live/work!

    Kudos for saying that - hopefully more people will take note!

    Here's to a speedy recovery OSH!
     
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  4. HoNeYBiRD

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    You were in our thoughts, thanks to be back
     
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  6. Crooker

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    Welcome back.
     
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    Pofecker Senior Member Premium Member

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    We all missed you Osh, welcome back! :)
     
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    Welcome back OSH. Great to see you came through everything okay :)

    We were all worried there for awhile . . .

    Your Friend - "Wiz"
     
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    Welcome back buddy...Really feeling good to see you back again on board!! :)
     
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    We missed you osh

    nice to have you back

    welcome back :)
     
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    oldenstylehats: Welcome back.

    It is now important to rest yourself, as I too have not spent many hours sleeping, and as you know it catches up with you. BHW cares. Now care for yourself 1st for a change.
     
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  13. polymath

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    good to hear you are ok...i think more than 90% of the people in here ,that includes me, are guilty of letting our physical body deteriorate and abuse our health from time to time...exercise should be part of any new IM course:)
    Again, welcome back bro:D
     
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    Hi i dont know you personally...But still its good to have you back.
     
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    Thanks for the update. Glad you're back. I have been thinking and praying about your situation quite a bit. Some of the things you have talked about really hit home with me.

    peace,
    gregstereo
     
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    So glad to see you back bud! You had us scared for a while there. I hope everything works out for you.
     
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    Welcome Back OSH !!
    It done my heart good to see your thread up here this morning :)
     
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    thanks dude..;)
     
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    just look after yourself glad that your okay
     
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  20. erroronline14

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    Yeah.. Im guilty as well.. welcome back olden...
     
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