hi guys
this is a journey of my self-improvement to keep myself accountable and share what worked for me. maybe it will help someone in a tough spot.
about me:
I'm 40 years old this year
met my ex-wife about 9 years ago. 1 year after we got married we had my son.
I had a decent career in finance trading/risk modeling. when my son was 2-3 I saw a dual opportunity to move onto consulting which would sustain us financially and at the same time I discovered some financial Substacks and i tought to myself - damn if people pay to read this absolute horseshit then I'm going to make a killing on the platform.
2 years later I stopped consulting altogether and my network of financial substacks was sustaining us and the revenue was growing AF. I was incredibly successful on Substack. The fastest growing financial newsletter of 2024. I was analyzing the markets and writing a long-form post EVERY SINGLE DAY. When the market was closed i would write about geo-politics.
My main money maker then and this is just accounting for subscription revenue:
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I got a buyout offer for my whole network. I was working 15 hour days, 7 days a week which was a big mistake on my part, for many reasons.
Then my wife filed for divorce. Long story short I was left with negative moneys 0 economic leverage out of the sudden which I wasn't ready for.
I can talk more about the divorce and why it turned out like this financially for me, if anyone is interested. I didn't even realize stuff works like this. basically ended up in family court fighting to be able to spend time with my son. I have 50% custody of my son now so that is everything.
A year ago I really hit my rock bottom mentally, something happened to my family member and I tried to kill myself, which changed everything and that was the point where i rebounded and paradoxically, stopped feeling like a victim and started improving my life.
I still feel extremely guilty because of this attempt and my son depending on me and I gave up on him but today I'm doing much better.
I tried almost everything that you can think of - gym, psychotherapy, cold showers, red light therapy, antidepressants, etc. Some things really helped me and others did nothing so I want to share what did and my routine. I hope that's ok here.
I'm on a journey to rebuild my wealth without working 15 hour days and trying to be a decent person and a father to my son.
I don't have any profitable substacks anymore, recently started building new ones but it takes TIME and WORK.
I'm doing it AGAIN!
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So how is this related to IM journeys? Well I do IM (trying Substack again + other online stuff) and I think the biggest issue with making money online when you don't have a boss standing over your head with a bat is procrastination and I really struggled with it in the last year.
