Things like morals or pride are the things keeps you at the bottom, also depends on what your values are. It's always the people that gives the least amount of fuck are successful,
but hey do whatever makes you happy.
Playing video games and getting paid for it makes me happy.
Are you sure you were pretending?
I'm not sure I could answer this question without sounding like a complete pervert. There are a lot of "if, then" statements in the world. Because of the way reality works, it's better to keep your fantasy a fantasy. Maybe in my "perfect universe" nothing would matter and we would all do as we please? Who knows... That's not how the world works, though. Some people who indulge in carnal lusts don't think of the consequences of their actions, but sooner or later they will learn. Better to stop before going in too deep, as they say.
i wonder why your subconscious told you to go black
Lol, if you knew the sort of fetishes I used to have then "going black" would be like going to Sunday service. I'm quite vanilla now. I have conflicting views on the topic. But see the previous reply for a better understanding.
One of my projects is in the Porn niche as well, and yes i had to overcome the "morality". One thing that makes me feel better about this project is that when i get my payout i'll donate some of it to a charity
On the other hand I have no moral principles regarding giving to charity. If someone needs my help I'll do what I can, but you never know what happens when you give to charity. People generally ignore the details surrounding poverty and give money as a form of, "it's the thought that counts." Well, I disagree with that way of thinking.
There's always someone who sneers at others for not being able to go against their conscience.
If it bothers you then don't do it. And don't let other people make you feel bad about it either.
Not giving a fuck isn't as glorious as it sounds. People who truly don't give a fuck have no soul. Look at terrorists.
You want to be a terrorist?
Seriously, if it bothers you then don't do it. You don't need confirmation from us to feel like you did the right thing.
Difficult comment for me to respond to without going into politics. It's not so much that porn bothers me. Few things truly bother me. The issues with pornography are strictly religious for me. I'll just say that porn is not something that I could see myself doing in any way, shape, or form.
I know you're just messing with me, but this is pretty good bait to get into a religious debate, lol. I know enough about the Bible to stand my ground on these issues. I'm not ignorant on the etymology of the Koine Greek and Hebrew concordances. There are over 30k denominations all across the globe and each one is 100% convinced that their views of the Bible (and similar source material) are the most accurate, lmao. I'm not so easily convinced.
I was the same as you, soft in nature and kind to the soul.
A brittle being that enjoyed the slightest breeze as it tingled my senses.
Once I got an invitation from the real world in the form of having to work in retail, it took me only three months to learn to despise humans.
I didn't really hate any one person in particular from that point in time but I lost a lot of my ingrained compassion and empathy as I was acquainted with a darker side of human nature.
Gonna just shoot straight to the point with this question: Did you ever truly suffer in your life? And if yes, for how long?
I broke down after three months of constant anguish, methamorphosing into a colder and more boorish being, only for the sake of preserving my own life.
I'm a large skeptic and cynical by nature (almost). I don't trust myself at times, let alone all those people, lol. Soft and kind? Well, if you insist. I'm by no means a pacifist, if that's what you are implying.
stand in the ashes of millions of would be online money makers that failed and ask them if morals and principles matter.
What's several decades of fun vs an eternity of grief? Note: I'm not talking about hell.
Whats wrong with porn and sexuality?
Again, I can't answer this without going into politics. I have studied things that could make you believe in "The Beyond" or something even more insane with the way the "facts" are presented. The intricate plans of those who concocted these things hundreds if not thousands of years ago, will have you second guessing everything you read from now on. You will eventually get to a point where you must either study the source material yourself or rely on revisionist history from poorly designed websites. Many of these sites are conveniently "disproven" by the typical 'wikipedia crowd'. Is it because they are wrong? Hmm, you decide.
Read a book on Dianetics or something equally verbose and pretty soon your worldview will flip upside down, lol. A person with a weak physical, mental and spiritual foundation will always fall victim to whatever is easiest to ingest.
Porn messes with your head, by the time you have a few thousand dollars in your bank, you will be an addict, looking for the "perfect scene" or searching for new "fetishes".
Good thing you
put yourself together mate, now stop searching for "Similar stories" on internet forums and get to work.
Christ (Peace Be Upon Him) is actually dead. God is watching.
I've been there and back again. I got to a point where I introspectively understood that I am more powerful than any porn and fetish that was negatively impacting my brain. I'm mostly just into vanilla now. When I allow myself to get too aroused then it becomes more difficult to control. The problem is that at that stage, you don't even want to control it, lol. The chemical imbalance of dopamine is like candy to a child. Try taking it away and the child lashes out and throws a tantrum.
The inner beast of carnal lust is not to be taken lightly. Especially when the person in question has a high libido.

Even then, temptation can be overcome if you truly desire to do so.