I used to have a big problem with drugs. Got on the road to recovery when I realised how badly it affected the people I loved - friends and family.
took a long time to get myself sorted but it was worth it.
looking back I see that addiction is like an escape - for me it was an escape from life, pressure, unhappiness, not knowing what to do with myself and so on.
Try to just think about working on your life - try to fix or remove problematic areas and work on the positive areas of your life. Try to find and follow your passions and also know that life is hard - it’s not just you that (might be) struggling; we’re all in the same boat and we all struggle sometimes and even if you feel like you’re not achieving much, it’s not the case; sometimes just moving slowly in the right direction is massive progress.